a gift from heaven

It was all sudden on this weekend, my father took me to a dog bleeder with no expectation, and I fell in love with a fluffy puppy boy. We went just for appreciating puppies never thought we would adopt one.

I couldn't decide to welcome dogs after Rex the former dog passed away 2 years ago firstly as I didn't want to accept my reality got far from my mother day by day. She can never see the puppy boy. (She never know even that Rex has gone.) She would be always with him if she was alive, she loooooved dogs.

And secondly as I didn't think I could look after a dog besides what I was dealing with at the moment.

I took care of my dementia dog with malignant tumors for his last, I felt relief when his pain was over. I knew he hold on his strong pain as he accidentally bit me twice. After he left, I realized I didn't want to do anything for the rest of my family (human beings.) But I had to. I knew how wonderful to be with dogs, but I thought there was no strength left any more, mentally, physically.

If I waited till I would felt ready, I would never had a dog again. It is a great blessing that I'm going to adopt a fur baby again, SOON!